I must admit that I am a first time blogger.  I heard about them, was sort of interested in them, but never blogged.  It actually took me a few days to explore this workout log once my tri coash, Les, set it up.  She must have thought either I was lazy or did not care to update my log.  The truth is, I was a little intimidated because I was not sure what was what or what to do exactly.   It's a little embarrassing because my soon to be 14 year old niece, Tatiana, has a my space page and creates and updates pages for others.  But like anything else, once I got over the fear of the unknown, I jumped in and began to play.  It was a lot of fun and I was addicted.  I did not even have to think twice when I found how easy it was to write a blog.  I began to write exactly what I felt and was thinking at that time, not thinking of the repercussions.  Why would there be, it was my personal blog?  Then I realized that you could send the site to friends and it was very easy.  

At first, I only sent the link to BC and to my sister, Bridgette.  Bridgette and I share a passion for sports and working out, so i thought she would enjoy it.  Who else would care how much I work out, eat and weigh?  But after Wildflower, I got so many calls and e-mails asking me how it was.  And why wouldn't they?  I have only been talking about Wildflower for months.  It felt good having people take an interest, so I sent my link to them.  While I was doing that, I figured I send to all my friends because I was so proud of my accomplishment and wanted to share it with everyone.  But that also means they see EVERYTHING.  Sure I could limit the workout and nutrition sections, and only have my blog and photo album viewed, but why should I?  My daily struggles and accomplishments are a big part of my journey, they are the steps that will ultimately lead me to each of my destinations, whether it is a oly distance, long course, 1/2 IM, IM or even a club race.   

This leads me to my question, why is this one so hard?  I had no problems writing any of my previous blog entries.  These entries are primarily for me, which I have chosen to share.  But I feel like once I write and save my next entry (this entry), then Wildflower 2008 will be forgotten.  The thought of EVER forgetting Wildflower 2008 frightens me.  I have to admit that I replay the race over and over again in my head when I'm in bed, right before I go into a deep sleep.  And I find myself re-reading my Wildflower blog entry because it makes it feel so much real.  I get that feeling I had on that day and it's a wonderful feeling that I don't want to let  go.  I'm scared that I will forget that feeling once I set my next goal.  I know what my next goal is, but I fear that if i write it, Wildflower 2008 is no more.  I guess the reality of it is that Wildflower 2008 is over;  This realization saddens me...